Showing posts with label Vicarious. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Vicarious. Show all posts

Monday, February 7, 2011

Experience-"All Rise"

            Didn’t actually get to this one until today.  They don’t hold court everyday, so I kind of had to wait for them to hold the next trial.  There were three to choose from, two criminal (one of which I was too late for) and one civil.  I chose the civil, because it seemed like it’d be more interested (though I’m sure that’s just my personal preference).  The case was apparently the second in a potential series.  The Plaintiff (a satellite television company) sued a man for something regarding ‘cards’ used with their service.  The judge and lawyer didn’t go into great detail, having both already discussed the case previously, but I was able to glean from a combination of what they said, and my own personal knowledge that the man had been effectively stealing cable by altering access cards to the satellite network’s encrypted stream. Piracy.  The whole thing was cut a little short, however, by the fact the defendant didn’t show up to court.  I’m not sure why, it wasn’t really discussed.  I was impressed, however, with how professional everything still went, even with the lack of a defendant.  Honestly, I was impressed with the whole affair.
            Firstly, when I walk into the actual courtroom it’s just a beautifully designed room.  It’s an older building, as many courthouses are, or at least designed to appear, and had some simple, yet classy wood paneling along the walls.  There were high windows, and multiple chandeliers.  It was all very much like a movie set from some 1940s courtroom drama.  I kept expecting Jimmy Stewart to burst in demanding something or other.  However, unlike a movie from the 40s, the courtroom was also full of electronic equipment.  Several computer monitors sat on the desks of the defendant’s side, the plaintiff’s side, and the … whoever that woman who sits under the judge is (not the stenographer).  Additionally, there were little microscope like devices I can only assume are used to highlight specific paragraphs, sentences, words, and dates of individual documents in cooperation with all the monitors.  The combination of modern technology and old aesthetics was really, truly beautiful.
            Second, I was deeply impressed with the judge.  When the defendant didn’t show up, I half espected this to just be a case of “Oh, well, pretty much whatever the plaintiff wants then, since I guess Mr. Smith didn’t want to show up,” but it wasn’t in the slightest.  The judge actually argued over wording, making sure that this case would not determine any future rulings, both because of a lack of fairness to the defendant, as well as a concern for overstepping jurisdiction and setting a potentially disastrous precedent.
            I don’t know if justice was served, but it sure was fun to watch.

Saturday, February 5, 2011

Assignment - Gluttony - Week 6 - Vicarious

Objective - Explore the need for physical gluttony
Duration - 2 hours (7 days to complete)
Assignment - Talk to someone who is morbidly obese about their inability to control their eating habits. Then, talk to someone in the health care industry about the same. Discuss the differences in these viewpoints.

Sunday, January 30, 2011

Experience-"Private Eyes Aren't Watching You!"

            This was another one I failed to complete even outside the allotted time frame.  Though not for lack of trying!  I added the fantasy of voyeurism to my profile on several sites, as well as posting brand new listings to places like craigslist, and actively pursuing a couple “we’re a couple” profiles on the sites I frequent.  None of the e-mails I sent out saying “Hey, would you be interested…” returned anything, favorable or not.  And nobody contacted me of their own volition after seeing my profile, either.  However, my Craigslist ad did yield some fruit.  I got about 4 hits, one bogus spam, one not looking for quite what I was, and two potentials.  Unfortunately, one fizzled out, and the other was waiting on his Girlfriend to return in a few weeks from some work conference (may still indulge in that one, they seemed like a fun couple!).  It really did not help that, for whatever reason, my Craigslist posting was flagged and removed after about 12 hours.
            I guess I could have gone and peered in some neighbor’s window or some such, but that is kind of sketch, and not really something up for doing.  Initially I think the problem was I mentioned I was doing this or a blog specifically, and even anonymously people get a bit antsy about such things.  It did not take long for me to realize it was kind of silly for me to divulge every single reason to complete strangers.  Especially since we take these risks through daily human interactions.  We do not own a patent or copyright on our interactions with others.  We do not get to dictate whether they later discuss these things as fact, or even use them to embellish fictional tales, especially when our identities are protected.  Some people would say it is wrong, and if I plan to write about my experiences I should tell people up front.  To them I say, bollocks.
            Again, I am not really sure what this one was SUPPOSED to teach me, maybe Brad just thought it would be funny.  Maybe I was supposed to learn that denying myself was something I should not do, and I should build confidence and actually go after what I want, rather than just sit there and watch it fuck someone else.  Not really sure.  Whatever the lesson, it sadly was not learned.  Perhaps another time.

Saturday, January 29, 2011

Assignment - Temperance - Vicarious - Week 5

Objective - Justice
Duration - 1 hour (7 days to complete)
Assignment - Goto court (traffic/civil/etc...) and observe the proceedings. Discuss how other people experienced justice.

Experience-"Everyone Says, 'I Loathe You!'"

            So as it turns out, I don’t actually know many couples in a committed relationship.  Or couples in general.  Like, next to none, honestly.  I honestly don’t know that many PEOPLE in general, really.  But whatever, we make do with what we’ve got, don’t we?
            This probably explains my general outlook on relationships.  I don’t date.  I’ve never ‘dated,’ or been in a romantic relationship with anyone.  I’ve been on exactly one date in my life, and it was … a little awkward, but mostly painless.  However, it was also rather underwhelming—and I don’t fault the other party in this, we just weren’t clicking.  The point being, I’ve not really had much experience with happy, healthy relationships.  Most of the couples in my life have either split dramatically, or continued on unhealthily, and quite often co-dependently.  My best friend just got out of an emotionally abusive relationship he—at the time—thought might be one to stand the test of time, and other Hallmark sentiments; friends from high school who married young have fought, threatened divorce, but ultimately decided to stay together for whatever reason; elder family members (aunts, uncles, etc.) have either gotten divorced to remarry someone basically the same (but better at concealing their activities) as the manipulative people they were originally married to, or stayed in a physically, emotionally, and verbally abusive marriage for no greater reason than ‘god doesn’t believe in divorce;’ There’s really one marriage of people I’m somewhat close to (though not geographically) which seems to be working, and even that had a really ugly phase.  I’m not saying I don’t believe in love, or that I think it’s impossible to have a healthy relationship, or even marriage.  I just don’t think most people are actually capable of it—and I definitely include myself amongst that number.  Especially when they go out looking for it.
            If by some unholy chance I happen to fall in love, and the person actually loves me back, I’ll let it happen (or at least try to).  I just don’t want to go chasing it.  I don’t want to be one of those people who thinks they HAVE to have someone in order to be complete.  ‘Cause if you aren’t a complete person, from what I’ve witnessed?  There’s no chance of you having a healthy, successful relationship (see:  co-dependant). I’m not running away from the possibility, but I don’t think I’m there yet either.

Saturday, January 8, 2011

Assignment - Lust - Week 2 - Vicarious

Objective - Craving for carnal pleasure
Duration - 2 hours (7 days to complete)
Assignment - Watch someone having sex (with another person, in real life) but *DO NOT* participate.

Saturday, January 1, 2011

Assignment - Chastity - Week 1 - Vicarious

Objective - Practice romantic friendship
Duration - 4 days (7 days to complete)
Assignment - Observe two individuals in a committed relationship.