This was another one I failed to complete even outside the allotted time frame. Though not for lack of trying! I added the fantasy of voyeurism to my profile on several sites, as well as posting brand new listings to places like craigslist, and actively pursuing a couple “we’re a couple” profiles on the sites I frequent. None of the e-mails I sent out saying “Hey, would you be interested…” returned anything, favorable or not. And nobody contacted me of their own volition after seeing my profile, either. However, my Craigslist ad did yield some fruit. I got about 4 hits, one bogus spam, one not looking for quite what I was, and two potentials. Unfortunately, one fizzled out, and the other was waiting on his Girlfriend to return in a few weeks from some work conference (may still indulge in that one, they seemed like a fun couple!). It really did not help that, for whatever reason, my Craigslist posting was flagged and removed after about 12 hours.
I guess I could have gone and peered in some neighbor’s window or some such, but that is kind of sketch, and not really something up for doing. Initially I think the problem was I mentioned I was doing this or a blog specifically, and even anonymously people get a bit antsy about such things. It did not take long for me to realize it was kind of silly for me to divulge every single reason to complete strangers. Especially since we take these risks through daily human interactions. We do not own a patent or copyright on our interactions with others. We do not get to dictate whether they later discuss these things as fact, or even use them to embellish fictional tales, especially when our identities are protected. Some people would say it is wrong, and if I plan to write about my experiences I should tell people up front. To them I say, bollocks.
Again, I am not really sure what this one was SUPPOSED to teach me, maybe Brad just thought it would be funny. Maybe I was supposed to learn that denying myself was something I should not do, and I should build confidence and actually go after what I want, rather than just sit there and watch it fuck someone else. Not really sure. Whatever the lesson, it sadly was not learned. Perhaps another time.
Again, I direct you to the objective of the assignment, and the definitions of 'vicarious' and 'lust'. It's only when you know yourself, can you make yourself.
ReplyDeleteAlso, yes. I would say 'lesson learned' as far as full disclosure to people that you may or may not be writing about your experiences. People all over the world write about their experiences every day. Most great writers say that you can only write from what you know. They are your experiences, and as long as you're changing names and other identifying data to protect the (not so) innocent, no harm, no foul.
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